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QUIZZIES
Do you feel overwhelmed and shaky? sometimes have troubles thinking straight while your stomach hurts for no reason? take this quiz based on the past two weeks
Do you think it's always your fault, you just cannot do anything right? or cry for no reason? Take this quiz based on the past two weeks
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Since you, a human beings are listening to my videos and taking the next step to a healthier you and downloaded the outlines I typed up for you, here are some more...chp 2 Clouds of concern is really chp 3
DO YOU ALWAYS HAVE STOMACH ISSUES?
Anxiety causes stomach issues in me, but it got to a point my stomach acted up even without anxiety. I went to the ER one night with severe abdominal pain. They did a cat scan and found something in my stomach. That was in October 2025, I was told I need to find a gastro doctor to get a EGD and colonoscopy done right away. I was able to see the gastro doc like right away but they scheduled my procedure for April 29, 2026...almost seven months of crucial thinking and waiting. I decided to make a stomach journal to document everything and see if I can fix me myself lol. If you have stomach issues and want to journal it, just download the one I made and it might just help you.
UPDATE: 03/18/2026
The gastrointestinal dr made me come do the procedures on the 11th, they took three biopsies. I get the results at 1:45pm today...they called me in yesterday.
UPDATE: 03/22/2026
Results: gastric mucosa with slight inflammation, causes -Helicobacter pylori infection which that test was negative.
I made my food pyramid that I go by and I feel calmer with the gas pains. There is a single stomach journal page and it also has the food pyramid.
UPDATE: April 7th, 2026
I'm telling you people, if you are over weight and have done everything possible even prescription weight loss medication and cannot lose weight, and you have stomach issues download the stomach journal and commit to it, things might start to get better. My whole younger self was no more than 120 pounds, even after having my son. Then I hit twenty-five and I noticed my weight would fluctuate bad, one minute I was 120 and then the next 150. Back then my metabolism was a little better so I could lose the weight easily, and my bowel movements were more regular. When I hit thirty my thyroid took a crash and I gained literally one hundred and ten pounds. People did not recognize me, not even my own sister. After being diagnosed with hypothyroidism and taking the correct medication my weight went down to one hundred and eighty, one sixty on a good day. I wouldn't accept that, I do not over eat...to be honest I only ate one big meal and a snack each day, so why do I weigh so much, I would ask myself. I am active, I walk one to two miles a day to make sure of it, and everyday I'd try to break the day before's record. I did twenty minutes of cardio in the morning, every morning to the point I felt like I was gonna pass out and or throw up. no pounds were shedding, so I went to my medical dr and asked her to put me on weight loss pills, she did and I took them for six months and not one pound, well maybe five. Was not worth the out of pocket money I had to pay because insurance did not pay for it. I also had to stop taking one of my psych meds to be able to take it, that screwed my head up, so I had to ask myself, what's more important; being skinny or having a clear mind. It's crazy how you have to make decisions like that in life: do I want a healthy body or healthy mind? Well thank god you can have both, with little work but major commitment. Ever since I started drinking Meta Mucil every night, taking a probiotic, eating what my body needs everyday to function correctly and healthy and drink only water and coffee (beginning of march 2026) I have lost fifteen pounds without trying. This whole stomach journal was not to diet, it was to show me what I can and cannot eat with my stomach issues. To figure out what made my stomach hurt and what made me poop better/worse etc. A lot of people do not have insurance or their insurance might not cover certain things, so that's why I am here trying to help those that cannot get the help they need. When the gastrointestinal dr told me to drink Meta Mucil, I drank it in the morning at first and when I told him that he laughed at me and said "you poop in morning, drink at night.". That made a world of difference, so drink it right before you go to bed, I drink mine between 8-9PM so I do not forget, because if I forget to drink it, I am suffering all the next day. The great news is everything I take to maintain no stomach pain is all over the counter, yes it is expensive for some dang powder, but a thirty day supply of Meta Mucil is only $10.50 at Dollar General, Align is outrageous it's like $35 for 28 pills, that's not even a month worth. Ask your regular dr to prescribe you a probiotic, that should help the cost for you.
SELF-ESTEEM
A lot of people especially kids have low self-esteem. With the media only having skinny sexy humans selling their stuff. Kids are very impressionable and to be honest so are grown ups. Just because you do not weigh 120 pounds at 5 foot 5inches, with a C cup or bigger doesn't mean you are less of a person. Or even ugly like you think you are. I used to be that beautiful skinny young woman with a potential modeling career to get into acting. Then something went wrong with my thyroid and I blew up like a balloon overnight. Yeah, that was a blow to my self-esteem big time; I have never in my life been two hundred and thirty pounds. The biggest I ever got was one ninety, but I was nine months pregnant lol. I did not leave my room except to use the restroom and shower from age twenty-nine to about thirty-four. People would come over and try to get me to come out and I wouldn't. Then back to back traumas happened, then two more happened and I was all of a sudden alone. That didn't bother me I am a very independent woman, but I realized I had to do what needs to get done, otherwise it is not getting done. My best friend and I went into a "fun" store and the owner asked if we wanted to make a grand or more for four days of work? hhmhhh right details please lol. My best friend had the body to work the gig, but me why did he specifically ask me? Made me think, then I asked him and his response was because you are a beautiful woman...and your tits are huge. I'm like omg! That gave me a boost of confidence and I thought to myself doing the gig might boost it even more. (or really kill my self-esteem) We both agreed to do the gig and we got free $50 grab bag. I told my husband about it and agreed to let me do it. I never had so much fun in my life, and I met a lot of great people from Toledo. I did not have one negative thing happen while I worked my shifts. People were asking me to take pictures with them and that made me feel great as well. Then my best friend found these kittens on the street and did not want them to die, so she brought them to my house lol. I could not resist the little fluff ball of a kitty. I named him Fluffnut, because he is really fluffy (was) and he is way nutty, lol. The poor thing is blind in one eye and very low vision in the other, I didn't know that when I named him I promise. He is my emotional support cat that has never been trained or registered (I don't take him anywhere), but that cat is on it and makes me instantly feel better. He knows my moods better than I do. He helped my depression and with that, it made me realize I'm still the same person I was ten years ago. I have to get out of the funk and rock me like I used too. I wanted to have another baby by thirty-five, but I was thirty-six and I used Depo-pervara for birth control and when I stopped it, it took until I was thirty-eight to get my cycle back from stopping at thirty-three. By then my husband was like nope, our kids are grown now, I don't want to start over again. I think he thought I would try and purposely get pregnant because he would use every excuse in the book not to have sex when I provoked him. I mean he would but wouldn't, then I started to get mad and confronted him about it. It was making me feel less of a woman again and I did not want to slip back into that depression. He explained the situation and told me he thinks I am the sexiest woman alive to him and it's not me. I understood what his situation was and I knew it would take time for him to regain strength in his back and chest. (he was one of the traumas) I needed to find a new psychiatrist, I found Dr. Valcos office. They placed me with a wonder young woman that played me like a ginny pig. She put me on closapine because nothing was working for me (new meds), and older meds might be the trick she said. Holy hell people, NEVER try that. I had to get blood work every week for six months, every two weeks for six months. It made me delusional, non cognitive and I lost like eighty pounds in like six months. If you had a conversation with me, you would think I was in another dimension. Everybody was concerned except my doctor, so I trusted her when she said the side effects will eventually go away. Well a little after a year that whole office got closed down for prescribing too much medication, so again I had to find a new psychiatrist. Go three months without meds, because it takes that long to get into a new one.
One thing I can say that is a fact: when I lose my self-esteem, me and only me can get it back and I do! I remind myself, I am only human and all humans were created equally no matter their status in life. No one on earth is ugly, there is beauty in everything that has life. No one has asked to be born, that's impossible. So people should take that to heart, we're all here for a purpose otherwise we wouldn't be here. Some people never find their purpose because other people have ruined their ambition or motivation. People have to realize you only have one life in the body you're in now, embrace life. Don't make it difficult for anyone including yourself. There's evil people in the world and there is pure people, than you have the people that work in the grey area of life. This world has proven humans can be very evil and we cannot give up. Look in the mirror and tell yourself how pretty you are, or handsome. Repeat it three times, three more times, do you believe it yet? Then do it until it makes you smile. Get a sticky note pad and write affirmations on each one and place them where your most traffic area is. Wear a smile all the time, it literally puts you in a good mood. If you like listening to things on your device, choose a free affirmation app. I make a gratitude book when I'm feeling low self-esteem, it's really easy. You can use anything from a notebook or if you are into art, you can make a cover and put blank and lined pages into it. You want at least five lines to a page, to write five things you're grateful for. You can draw pictures of what you are grateful for, or cut pictures out of magazines and glue them in. Or pictures of the people you are grateful for to glue in there. Add why you are grateful for the item or person you put in it. Have lined paper in there so you can write reflections of things you learn along your path. You can make an affirmation book of your own, buy one of those cheap picture books from dollar tree. Cut rectangles out of paper that would fit in the slots, write the affirmation on it and place it in the clear slots. My favorite thing to make is an art journal. You start with a book that's no longer needed/wanted and rip out some pages every chunk of pages because it will get thick. You can cover the cover with material or book cover, ideas are endless. Glue solid paper over the words on the pages and design it. I've cut out words from magazines and pictures, I have drawn in mine, put pictures of those I miss. My favorite lyrics to songs, tattoos I want and art projects I have completed. The ideas you have are all perfect and should be put down on paper in any form: painting, poems, stories etc. Never be afraid to express yourself in an un harmful way. I found this self-esteem journal and thought it was perfect to share with those who need it.
PTSD
post-traumatic stress disorder = mental health condition triggered by experiencing or witnessing terrifying, life-threatening, or traumatic events.
PTSD
ANGER MANAGEMENT
I suffered from anger issues as I got older in my teens. I was sick of my "guardians" using me as the family "punching bag". When someone made me feel explosive anger, my thought was to get revenge. (way unhealthy by the way) Well not only did I lose the thing that was most precious to me, my toddler but now I am sitting in jail. That's when I had to do my first round of anger management court ordered. When you're made to do something you mostly go in with the attitude of pure annoyance of you being there or doing it. Each class was more interesting than the last and I was actually not just learning about controlling my anger but all about how I tick and how I tock. Then later in life I was court ordered to take domestic violence for woman classes. Now I defiantly went in that class like WTF, I REALLY DO NOT NEED THIS CLASS!!!! First class I learned it is more of a class about finding your true self. I took those 23 weeks of classes and ran with it, I learned so much about myself it was crazy. Not only did those classes change my attitude, they changed my look at others. I've always been an empath, I feel the pain they're going through, and now I understand why the situation happened to feel that pain. They choose that path in their journey, to be destructive and violent, "it's okay to hit your partner as long as they started it.". Not in my book, two wrongs do not make a right! I think I was the only one that took that class as it was and not make it out to be something else. To be completely honest I think every male and female should take classes like that, it would help them mentally and to figure out who they truly are. I think as an adult my therapist made me do anger management in my early to mid thirties and my psychiatrist made me take anger management when I was mid-late twenties. In total I took it three times and learned something new each time and met some cool people to learn I am not the only one that struggles.
Then my son at the age about fourteen developed an anger issue. He was going through a lot at the time and I just thought at the age and the stage everything was normal. I defiantly kept an eye on him and would have chats with him to check his mental status. He started not listening, talking back and calling me names. All part of growing up, I know I acted like that sometimes and to a point, but then he got violent with me by surprise jump attack on my back. I called his father to ask for some advice as to what he might do that works and got no response. My husband tried intervening and he took his door off the hinges because he would not come out of his room to go to school. He (my son) called his grandma (my bio mom) and she called CSB on us and my son's dad was all of a sudden knocking on my door. Was he there to help or start a battle in our war? He made my son go with him, did not say one word to me. In my life I know I had a lot of hate in my heart and a billion reasons to have it, my son was born into a war and became the winning prize. My hate did not seem so bad now does it? All I wanted was to raise my son into a healthy, respectful, thriving young man. My plans for that shattered the day I over heard a conversation between my bio mom and stepdad about wanting custody of my son and has a brilliant lawyer. Now mind you my bio mom and stepdad are loaded, so a ten thousand dollar an hour lawyer was nothing to them. A court appointed lawyer is out of my league, let alone all that. By age sixteen he was back with me and a lot taller than me. I put him in counseling and to see a psychiatrist. She did not listen or help so he stopped seeing her, and now he's eighteen I cannot make calls for him and he has major phone anxiety and won't make any phone calls to schedule appointments. I played therapist and did a lot of talking to the Universe about it and around three months of that and his twenty-first birthday he totally started acting different towards me and whole lot nicer. I just taught him everything I absorbed in those classes, I listened to his fears, I told him life changing stories, he learned life lessons from stories he over heard, he went threw a life learning experience. Thinking he did not need his mom (or any kind of guidance), and moved all the way to Virginia, 8 hours away in the middle of the night. He learned even though they say you are their friend, they will still try to get you to follow the wrong path. Thank god I raised him to not cave into pure pressure, and he called me to come get him eight hours away. I was there in seven!
anger management workbook and journal printouts
These printouts are made for kids/teens but an adult can use them for themselves. It is not babyish. The workbook has 13 pages and the journal has 37 pages. Best to print them both out
Driven by passion
My whole life I have been thrown away like trash because of my mental health diagnosis. The feeling of abandonment traumatizes you for life. You never have confidence to do the things you enjoy. I hate all my feelings, but love who I am. It's a constant battle in my life and I struggle each day wishing the war would end. That's when I got the idea; I hope no one else feels like this...but I knew that wasn't true sadly. I decided I can do something, but what: I don't have the degree to be a therapist or psychiatrist and that would take years. I want a now plan of action to save the world. I created this website and do tiktoks to let people know they are not alone.
Focused on you
This is where our journey begins. Get to know ourselves and we grow and succeed together. I'm glad you're here to be a part of our story. Every worksheet and journal downloads are completely free. I think mental health and health in general should be free. I'm not the smartest person in the world, but I'm sure as hell not the dumbest. I know there is a huge problem in society and mental health and that has to stop. We are not harming anybody when we are "talking to ourself" or "dancing with no music playing", so why get involved or gossip. Do not take anything someone says negative to you, personally. Even if it was your mom. How do they know anything, if they know nothing about mental health. People that know or understand mental health they wouldn't act stupid to the person suffering.
Fact and fiction
I hope you people are learning quality information and it is helping. If you people want to see more information on a subject let me know. I so far put information for ANXIETY, GRIEF, STOMACH ISSUES AND SELF-ESTEEM. Next will be PTSD, because now that you got back your self-esteem but (if you) struggle with PTSD you're still not your normal self yet.