About me

I am a 45-year-old married woman with two adult children outta the home. Asking the question, "what came first, the chicken or the egg?" kinda relates to my situation. For myself the question is, what came first, the artist or the mental case? lol! I was on my grandpa's knee learning how to draw a clown and puppy dog at 2-years-old, and I played with Bob; my imaginary friend. But I really am crazy, I guess, because it seems like I am the only one that wants a better world and life for my kids and grandkids. I do TikToks to try to get people to understand mental health and I only have seven followers (I have 12 now) and they're all my friends. Well excuse me, one person I do not know. It's sad that only rich crooked manipulating narcissists people run for all government positions. We wanna believe they will do what they say, but we the citizens always get taxed more and lose jobs, homes, kids etc. We need as of the United States of American citizens all start a fund and find the correct person(s) to be elected and let them campaign or something... just a thought!

      More on me, I was diagnosed with bipolar and major depression when I was 15-years-old. My guardians really did not know how to handle a child with a mental condition, so they did the only thing they knew. I cannot say I was the best kid, but I know for fact I was not the worst; they just did not know how to deal with a mental condition like mine. As I got older I was diagnosed with anxiety (panic disorder, social anxiety and OCD), PTSD and then I had a severe mental breakdown and was diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder bipolar type and BPD, C-PTSD and seasonal depression. So if you're reading this and you suffer from a mental condition, you now know you are not alone. I am used to people not listening to me because I do not think inside the box and people cannot handle that. I do not understand that because a lot of great people we still reference and use their theories had mental health conditions. If everyone thought the same nothing would get done, that would be like the definition of insanity kind of: people that all thought the same expecting a different outcome. Thank God we all think differently right? right! God put us crazy people on earth to warn the negative people "it's" coming...

    When I was a child I learned to make humor of everything in order to survive. That made me want to be an actress or stand up comedian, and I had the confidence to do so. I would practice on my friends and take their constructive criticism very well. I had enough confidence to start joking with the adults and did okay until I did not expect a pitchfork to stab me in the foot for being disrespectful. No one was laughing then and I could not wrap myself around why my guardian just stabbed me in the foot with a pitchfork, when they were joking around and I just added my two sense joke. I know for a fact it was not inappropriate because I would never of asked for an ass whooping, let alone stabbed in the foot. I just think he was jealous he did not think of it first. lol. That moment in time, I lost my will to try to make people laugh. Now I laugh at inappropriate stuff, when I am nervous or scared. I grew out of that in a way and in a way not; I am constantly joking with people and I laugh inappropriately, but have no confidence to be that stand up comedian I wished to be. 

Why am I always ignored?

24 Mar 2026 09:42

People have fought for rights for mental health sufferers since before 1960. The only right we won from 1960-1980 was not to be confined to an institution. I lost everything I worked for in my early twenties because authority took a stable person's lies over my crazy truth. I am sick and tired of being ignored and shoved into the corner to be forgotten. I have never hurt anyone out of anger or on a mental break, I've only ever hurt myself. I have so much love for people, and I'm curious as to how things work. I ask a lot of questions and most people misinterpret what or why I am asking. My questions are always innocent and for gaining knowledge, NOT questioning the authority behind it. Most people take me as a very confusing individual and does not understand my way of communication. I am straight forward, blunt and honest and sometimes people cannot handle that. I had to teach myself how to communicate because I am severely dyslexic, I have ADHD and a comprehensive problem and my parents never realized that (they always thought I was on drugs). I would ask my mom for help and she could never help me with my homework except spelling. If mental health sufferers received their rights between 1960-1980 why have all my rights been stripped of me? 

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CUSTOM OR PREMADE ART

I cannot tell u what all I can do, I sure can tell you what I do Not do, that is humans very well. Cartoon characters are my favorite to do. Cartoon humans are different because I do princesses on Q! lol. If you want a figurine, I can do Lilith, triple moon goddess, mother earth, triple witches and the list do go on. You want something miniature or a sculpture, just ask. I also do Halloween "greenery" (blackery lol). I can draw pretty much anything, and paint it even better; I have 43 years of experience. 

I WANT TO SAVE THE WORLD...I'LL SETTLE WITH AMERICA :) 

I am trying to get the government to realize there is a HUGE problem in America (the world), and it is MENTAL HEALTH! Living is very stressful for some people, with money or without money. Mental health affects 24% of Americans, that's 1 in 4 people over 60 million lives. Out of those 60 million people, 6% of those lives, that's 14 million people will develop a serious mental health disorder. Our youth suffers as well, ages 6-17 is over 1 in 7 kids will experience a mental health issue. Here's the kicker though; nearly half of Americans will suffer a diagnosable mental health condition in their lifetime. Highest rate of mental illness age is 18-25, higher in females and in multiracial, Asians have a lower rate. Most common disorder ANXIETY disorder and DEPRESSION. with those 60 million people 17.70% develop a substance abuse disorder and 5.50% had serious thoughts of suicide. The problems we face with suffering from a mental health condition are plenty from the social world, but why with the government? 25% of people that suffer said their needs were not met. 77.09% people with a substance abuse disorder did not get treatment, and 9.20% of people do not have health insurance. That is over 5 million people!!

GOOD NEWS THOUGH

RATES ARE GOING DOWN WITH OUR CHILDREN

AGES 12-17 WITH MAJOR DEPRESSION

2023 18.10%

2024 15.40%

2.8 MILLION YOUTHS EXPERIENCED A SEVERE DEPRESSED EPISODE AND COULD NOT FUNCTION AT SCHOOL/HOME/WORK

 

SUICIDE RATE

2023 12.30%

2024 10.10%

3 MILLION KIDS REPORTED SERIOUS THOUGHTS OF SUICIDE

28.60% OF KIDS DID NOT HAVE THEIR PREVENTION HEALTH VISIT 2022 AND 2023, THAT IS 7 MILLION YOUNG PEOPLE THAT WERE NEGLECTED.

HAPPIEST                       UNHAPPY

NEW YORK.                                                ALABAMA

HAWAII                                                       ARIZONA

NEW JERSEY                                               NEVADA

NORTH DEKOTA ranked #1 by Salient for having very low poor mental health days and low youth employment, but indicate very high overall well being. Why do you think some states are happy and others are not? If you look up the census like I did, you would see the highest state percentage of the people happy in that state, you see it is only like 64% maybe 66%, that still leaves 40% of people that are unhappy. That's a lot of people. My state was placed somewhere in the middle, the lower end of happiness and I get it. I have lived the country life, actually had cows and horses. (not in the current state I live in now) There was a cemetery at the end of the road I would venture to when I was depressed. Or I would ride my horse, or enjoy the four-wheelers. Then my life was pulled out from underneath me in a blink of an eye. The future I had planned my whole life just shattered because of a mental break down. It took a lot out of me to collect the pieces of what life I had left, but I put it back together and kept trucking. Then an unseen event occurred that really screwed my head up and that destroyed my soul and I've yet to get it back. Then the unforgivable assumption that night broke me, taking my son from his bed, in the middle of the night. Knowing I'm lying there unresponsive, instead of calling 911, you kidnap my kid because you think I am passed out drunk. When the bottle of southern comfort was full except for a shot missing, which was in the glass next to it full. Didn't you learn with Jill? If people did not assume, she'd still be alive. My psychiatrist prescribed me 1200mg of Seroquel and it was my first time taking it, she told me it would help me sleep. Not put me in a deep coma, which it did. If you know anything about psych meds and Seroquel, you know 1200mg of it is way too much. I guess what I am trying to say is DO NOT ASSUME!!!! A lot of people with mental disorders like to assume because we are too afraid to ask. You need to know the only one that can truly advocate for you, is yourself. Stand up and be proud of who you are, because you are the greatest person on this planet and only deserve the best.