LET'S TALK

I was always very unique since the age of two that I can remember. I can probably say since birth, but only memories from age two. My mom still played fast pitch softball when she was pregnant with me, her position: catcher! She even told me a girl slammed into her stomach trying to get her out. I'm like wow thanks mom. I don't think she smoked or drank hopefully, but you never know. So that had to be my very first head injury. (lol) My biological parents were separated when my mom got pregnant with me, hey people have needs. BUT when I heard that, it made me so mad...for real! I probably heard a lot of negative fights being in my mom's womb. So I was subjected to an unhealthy environment already. I was doomed and I wasn't even outta the womb yet. I wish you could remember things from an infant. Things would probably make more sense to me in my life.

       By the time I turned one, my parents divorced and my mom and I moved to Romeo, Mi on Tilson street. That whole street decks all out for Halloween and it's like you should have to pay to go down this street, but you don't. To this very day Halloween is my life, and I go all out fall time to decorate; Halloween style! So things you cannot remember, but happened impacts your life.  

        The fact my parents were not the correct guardians I should had. I am diagnosed with schizoaffective with bipolar, on top of that I have high anxiety, chronic depression, BPD, dyslexia and ADHD. I'm failing first grade and instead of testing me for things, they put me back a grade the following year.  By the time I made it to sixth grade, I wanted to never go to school again to learn. I want to go get away from home though, so school was my only option. When I was failing 9th grade, instead of testing me they put me in summer school. You know what I learned in summer school! How to beat the teacher in chess. I passed the class. By 10th grade my grades are slipping once again, finally my mom tests me....for marijuana, oh my goodness, it was negative. Then nothing from her, not even I'm proud of you for testing clean. Oh by the way my parents decided my friends at my school were the bad influence and transferred me to a private school. I'm sorry all that did was introduce me to coke. I was invited to a party like two weeks into school, and can you believe my mom let me go. She was happy for me lol. The boy throwing the party was the one that did it, my mom said he was a good boy. Good call mom!! I did not try it. My mom had me on this new medication for depression, it was the best medicine I've ever taken, I was in a good mood life was less stressful. I started having seizures like all the time at any moment and I could not feel them coming. I would just pass out and people would rush to me and assist me. I was fully awake but I could not wake up. I knew what everything that was going on. The first time it happened, I seriously thought I was dying and I was watching my death. Then I would just wake up and be like what the crap just happened. It was getting to the point they were going to take my licenses away. Then my savior Dr. Ambrose said it is the anti-depressant she's on. I stopped taking it and they went away. Everybody was good to me when it happened excepted my stepdad. He poured a whole bucket of water on me. It did not wake me up and now I am soaked. That's only one story, do you want me to continue?

to be continued until next time